Once again

Yes, I'm resorting to blogging to release all these bottled up emotions.. once again. Sometimes I wish I could do this to you but it's ridiculous how I can't even go to you for my problems or whenever I'm sad. Once again, I'm all alone.

Maybe I have high expectations? But is it really that high of an expectation to expect your so call "boyfriend" to be there for you.. emotionally?

can't believe i'm resorting to this

I haven't blogged in forever. Mainly because whenever I do blog it's about something sad. Makes me feel so weak having to resort to blogging instead of just sucking it up and get over it. Maybe I kept it bottled up for so long that its eating me from the inside out. I don't know how I've gotten so... insecure. Why do I need the reassurance of the tittle "girlfriend" to make me feel loved or feel like what i have is the real thing? Maybe it's me wanting to actually have an anniversary? Or me comparing my relationship with other couples? Or maybe I have high expectations? Everything just seems like a blur to me. I'm not sure exactly why or what I'm unhappy about. Maybe i'm just fucked up in the head.

college is the shit.

honestly, i moved on to bigger and better things. ENOUGH SAID.

The World of Marketing.

My brother bought a $380 blender. It was so cool when the guy did all the recipes and what not and when we tried doing it ourselves.. it was nothing like what we saw in the store.

WTF, I'm hella scared.

So just a few weeks ago I was all happy about moving and I wanted to get away from this place so bad. Now, it's a whole different story. I'm so scared to move out! I'm going to be on my own for the first time. I'm scared I won't be able to handle the work and what if I don't like it there?

I want another month! haha I just want to hide in my room and not move. I'm such a chicken.

YOU.

i hate the fact that you always leave me hanging. you always leave me waiting on your ass. in a few more months i won't be waiting for you. i'm getting really tired of it.

one more week.

I can't wait until my dorm assignment comes out. I'm hoping for Segundo. *finger cross*

I'm so anxious about college. The thought of it scares me sometimes. Being in a new place and not being familiar with anyone. I guess it's okay though because every new experience is always a good one to me.

Anh left for UCSD. Eventually everyone else is going to leave. Gosh. It's crazzzzy. I can't believe she left. It just made me realize how fast summer is going. I remember her telling me that she has 4 weeks left.

& I found out I might have finals on my birthday. GREAT! Last year I spent my birthday at the library studying for anatomy honors. This year I might have to take a college final. CAN'T WAIT! >=[